Omgosh I am so at the point that I am going to scream. Today has just gone from ok, to bad, to really bad to just shitty. So I got to school today and didn't have a book so it was like just hoping to god that we didn't need that book today. Then I got to first period and was just in an unhappy mood period. and it slowly got worse throughout the day. Gym was just stupid because we played soccer and yeah I just wasn't in the mood. Lunch was good.. its food. LoL. Algebra 2 and History were alright. Then I got to my car and that just like ruined my day and pushed me to the edge. I really don't Like L.... and S is ok. I would just have liked to have had some consideration for who I was giving a ride home to..

Any way. So then I had to go and pick up J at the High School after X-C and he has like 3 more people for me to take to a X-C party that was for "Everyone" yeah ok. Well I'm 'apart' of the X-C team but was I invited to this X-C end of the season get together.. umm no I was never even considered when all of this came up. And I really don't like it when things like this are talked about right in front of me and then the Hostess has no consideration to even invite me.. a simple "STATEE" as I have been named. I really don't feel like very much a part of that team right now. And it really pisses me off when crap like this happens. I just need to keep my head up and don't let any of this get to me. And just learn that not everyone is "Invited" to everything. Even a major part of the team.

Ok I am just so tired of shit like this....

ok wtf, can this day like get any .. grrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! So jon is being a complete ass hole at this moment and just doesnt know what the fuck to do with his life. Ummmmm.... Yeah thats pretty much the major problem of the day. Jon is being an asshole to K because he got his ass kicked at x-c by one of the better runners. and then came home, got yelled at my K and me because he just can't handle the fact that K got in trouble for them doing shit they shouldn't be when they are supposed to be babysitting, and oh yeah the fact that he Broke Collins arm last night, yeah that has just a little to do with it all!!! any way so yeah that has been my entire night, grr i hate all this shit. I wish things would get better but they aren't.

Like it or not, I dont give a flying fuck!

Ok, this is my XANGA... Read it, Don't Read it I DONT FREAKING CARE!!!!!

So... Today went from Alright to COMPLETE FREAKING HELL!!!! J came here and chilled for a few hours and then went home early because he was tired. He got home and told me that he would be up tomorrow to help with my PSAT's... to study for them. YEAH, well that went to he** in a handbasket because his mom is a freaking B*tch!!!!! I really cannot stand her at all right now. I just.. I do not know. You would think after nearly a year and a few months I would be used to her stunts. I just simply cannot say how much more of this SHIT I can handle. It pisses me off to no extent and J just takes it and thinks that its HIS fault that we didn't think that his mom would pull a freakin' stupid stunt like that damn!!!

GRRRRR I really hate that Bitch!

I'm off to bed!

Love Ya, Hate Ya.... Leave me the hell ALONE!